Oh gosh. When they said that high school flies by, they weren’t kidding. It really does feel like just yesterday that I was walking in – late, by the way – on my first day of high school.
It’s very weird to tell people that I’m a senior because I still feel 12. I get excited about new Disney Channel movies and when I can have ice cream, but at the same time, I’m 17, running my own business, and looking at colleges? It’s all very surreal.
Though, I definitely feel the pressure that comes with being a senior – applications, scholarships, grants, financial aide, the whole nine.
I’ve always been the type to plan everything. I’ve known what I wanted to do since I was a kid, with a dream school in mind, and the following 20 years after high school thoroughly planned out. But. I learned very quickly that life happens and things change and people have the power to change everything you thought you wanted.
So, in all honesty, I don’t have a single clue as to what after high school looks like. I know what I want to happen, but things can change in an instant. I have back up plans for back up plans but what I’ve realized over the past summer is that planning doesn’t mean anything. You could have every hour planned out by the minute and it could blow up in your face. The best thing to do is just go with the flow. So that’s what I’m doing.
I can promise to you, whoever you are, and to myself that I’ll do my best to make the right decision for me. I won’t sacrifice myself or my dreams for anyone or anything. I am pursuing my dreams. It’s just a matter of how at this point. We’ll just have to see.
As far as senior year goes, I’m done already and it’s been 3 days. High school is exhausting and I’m over it, so I’m just doing what I can to make the best of it. It’s a very short period in my life that I will remember forever. It’s been crazy thus far. I can only imagine what this year will bring.
I have no idea what the intention of this post was, I guess I just really want to get back into writing about what matters to me. Like I said, life happened and my blog got lost in translation. It’s coming back though. I’m determined.
Here’s to senior year and to the unknown adventure that is the future. It’s gonna be one hell of a ride.