learning to be patient with myself. to know that i can’t be everywhere all the time, that it’s okay to take time for myself. that not everybody is going to like me and that’s okay. that some days are harder than others and mental illness is no joke. it’s hard to forgive yourself. it’s even harder to give myself grace when i hold myself to such a high standard. learning to breath, to talk, to take breaks, to be vulnerable. self love is hard. it’s really hard. it’s something you have to work at every day and sometimes it takes every inch of you to fight reversing all the progress you’ve made. life isn’t perfect, the internet isn’t perfect, and i’m sure as heck not perfect. but i’m trying to love me and all that i am. imperfections, insecurities, mental illness and all.
to be loved by you is my greatest gift. i am endlessly grateful for the safe space you provide me, the love you shower me with, and the laughs that never seem to stop. thank you for holding my hand, holding me up, and guiding me through. there aren’t enough words in this world to describe how much i adore you. my honey, my sweet, my boy, happy valentine’s day 🥰
it’s taken me awhile to feel like i could actually write this, it still doesn’t even feel real. i’m not even sure i have much to say, it’s been so long since we crossed paths. it’s hard to believe that we spent every weekend together for the better part of a year and a half, holidays, musicals, many adventures and don’t have a single picture together. i don’t understand how this world could be so cruel to one of the most beautiful people i’ve ever met. you will forever be the best baker’s wife ‘into the woods’ has ever seen and i will always be mesmerized by your voice, your character, and your blossoming heart. the way your face lit up when we saw each other, your infectious smile, your fierce eyeliner that i will always be so envious of. i hate this world for taking you and i’m sorry that you lost the battle you helped everyone fight so determinedly. to the greatest ball of sunshine, rest easy liv 💛
